Thoughts at 3 AM

I’ve had a bad day, and I couldn’t even sleep. So I’m still awake, and it’s already 3 AM. I was thinking of watching some motivational movie on Netflix, primarily because I need to get everything back on track again. However, I crossed that off the list. I’ll probably get this article done and then take a refreshing morning walk. Morning walk gives me the opportunity for self-reflection, which I consider worthy of making a daily habit. 

Anyways, I was thinking about what I should do to spend the time. Is it only me who wonders at 3 AM where he is now and where he should be in life? I don’t know, but it happens to me all the time. If I have a big event tomorrow or had a big event today, I can’t sleep. Events make me think about my life all over again. And as I stroll through my good and bad moves in the game of life so far, I figure out that it’s already morning. Yes, I belong to the category of overthinkers.

And as I overthink, I open a Microsoft Word document and start writing about what’s happening in my life right now and what I need to do it. Somehow, writing about my problems gives me a sense of clarity and helps me prioritize my goals in life. I’ve noticed it before. Whenever I face a crisis moment in life, I start writing about it; I would probably throw that paper in a dustbin later, though. But what’s important is – writing about the events makes my mind clear for the rest of the day.

Overthinking is not the only thing I do, though. The other activity that I cry. Okay, don’t get weirded out. I sometimes cry because I need to feel lighter about life. Somehow it helps me do that. I cry way too often. Starting from a wholesome video to a cute scene on Netflix, my vision gets blurry all the time at small events. You can regard me as an emotional person. But I think being emotional isn’t that bad. Those who express more stay less suffocated on the inside; at least that’s what I feel. Also, crying should never be limited to any gender.

I honestly feel a bit relieved after writing this. It’s like someone just took a boulder off my shoulders. Thank you WordPress !

Anyways, what are your thoughts on 3 AM? I would love to hear them!